I haz a happy

What a great weekend! Actually, it's been a pretty great summer so far in general. Lots of traveling around (even if I haven't left the state), learning a lot, back in grad school, making new friends, seeing old friends, and most importantly just making peace with myself and learning to be happy in Laramie. I attended my first gay wedding this weekend. My fairy godmother married his sweetie. It was a beautiful ceremony - short, sweet, well written, just nice! I had a random acquaintance tag along with me, which was mildly awkward since I wasn't sure if he thought it was a date or what. This was a guy that I've known for like 2-3 years, maybe longer. We randomly see each other at social things and dance and then that would be it. We've had plans to have coffee for like 2 years and he texted me Saturday morning to say he was coming to town and asked what I was doing. I said I had a wedding to go to and said he could be my +1, thinking he would decline. Instead, he showed up at my house and we went together. He wandered off at some point... I guess I should feel bad for not being very attentive but I didn't want it to be a date and there were SO many people at the wedding that I hadn't seen in forever. I don't feel bad. I had fun and ultimately he was the one that just wandered off without saying goodbye. The wedding had not just one but two receptions that lasted well into the night (even though I ran out of steam at about 11:30). I figured I would see a few old friends at the wedding but I didn't anticipate seeing so many friends or making a new friend of someone I was fairly unsure of recently. At any rate, I had a lot of fun, I danced, I drank too much, and I saw some old friends that I have missed a lot.

In other news... I had a second date yesterday. I don't want to say much since I don't want to jinx anything or jump the gun or anything like that. But... I'm excited about this one. If nothing else, going out with him has proven that I'm not actually dead inside. The last few dates I've been on before this, I remember just sitting there making small talk and being resentful that I could be at home by myself watching a movie or reading or walking in the park with my dog and it's never a good sign if you would rather be alone than with the person you are on a date with. Our first date lasted almost three hours and just flew by. The second was brunch followed by a walk in the park with our dogs. How cute is that?! ;-) I don't even remember the last time I liked someone that was actually obtainable. Maybe never? Anyway... we'll see what happens.

I already posted this video on facebook but I want to post it again since I really like it and it seems really appropriate for my life right now. (Thanks Jake!)



I'm broke but I'm happy
I'm poor but I'm kind
I'm short but I'm healthy, yeah
I'm high but I'm grounded
I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed
I'm lost but I'm hopeful baby
What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be fine fine fine
'cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving a high five
I feel drunk but I'm sober
I'm young and I'm underpaid
I'm tired but I'm working, yeah
I care but I'm restless
I'm here but I'm really gone
I'm wrong and I'm sorry baby
And what it all comes down to
Is that I haven't got it all figured out just yet